Who Am I ~ Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

seriously 'slap in the face' pissed off.

if u don't like how i'm running things..and i AM running things..then do it urself. i'd gladly quit and let u take over, since u seem to know so much about it and have so much to say.

oh, as well, if u've got something to say..say it to my face. don't get other's to do it for u.


on a side note, don't u hate it when ppl talk behind ur back? cuz i sure do.

just not my day...

hmm..what a day.

it started off w/ waking up late for church =| as well, i didn't wake up alert as i usually do either. was pretty groggy.

then had to run around making breakfast for me and my mother and whatnot cuz i was hungry, but despite all that running around..time still whizzed past me. =T

then, i had to help out w/ children's worship. it's was a 'games' program. boo. lots of screaming kids to try to get under control. it sucked.

after that it was going alrite..had lunch at fairview (g-h-e-t-t-o), then just wandered around the mall til everybody left, cuz i had to wait for mike so we could head down to the unity meeting today. we almost made it on time too! all of 3 mins late =T but it hadn't started yet..so it was all good.

i'd gotten roped into writing the minutes for the meeting..which was fine cuz it kept me awake..else there would have been that temptation to doze off cuz my brain was pretty fried.

now, if only i could stay awake for classes, i'd be a genius. =D

all was well...til i put the minutes into my bag. i was on the phone too, so i was distracted, but then... papercut! i totally felt it slice the gap b/w my thumb and first finger. GAH! =|

but, whatever, shook it off, hopped onto the subway and got home safe and sound.

and that's where more 'accidents' happened... >.<

it started out w/ helping my dad outside in the garage. he needed some help cleaning some stuff out..so i was like 'ok.' my mistake. as i was pulling out this heavy wagon..my fingers slipped..and my thumb nail ripped halfway. not just the nail itself..but it kept on going across ripping the pink part of my nail too. ='( it HURT! *pout*

but did it end there? nooooo... after coming back inside, i decided to go watch some tv. but while reaching to put down the remote..it slipped from my hands and dropped. rite on my bare TOES! =|

all in all, it was a decent day..MINUS the pain!

lesson of the day...regardless of when u wake up, if ur still feeling really groggy, just roll over, catch a few more winks..then try to wake up feeling more refreshed. else, bad stuff could happen..like, PAPERCUTS!

O-U-C-H!!!

finally...

oh my gosh...after years of having a messy living room, i've got a clean one. all it took was a LOT of pushing my mother around and a deadline. on the negative side...i swear i've never picked up so many boxes in my life. =T like my cooking resolution to not cook anytime soon, i don't plan on cleaning anything major anytime soon too. =|

yay for rosi!

i didn't get screwed over! well, almost totally didn't. i still have to get the credit that dennis saved for me. but other than that...i'm as good as gold. =D

quite pleased. less stressed...well, after getting his343 saved..than last year. =) and i didn't need any back-ups to fall onto. *grins and jumps for joy =D

i've lost a piece of my past..*sniffle sniffle

my grandmother got a new couch and armchair. i can't believe that she'd get rid of them! from an uber comfy couch and armchair to a new, ugly and very uncomfortable one! = granted it was a tad smelly, but it wasn't anything febreeze couldn't handle.  >.<

but yeah, i've got a lot of sentimental attachment to it. i grew up on it. it was my comfy couch and chair. it was where i played on, read on, did hwk on, napped on, etc. i spend a good continuous 9 years on it. and many occasions on it still whenever i slept over or whenever i just bummed there.

GRRRRRRR!!!!!

i've got my internet back!!! =D

oh how i've missed thee... oh, thy precious internet. i can now do more than just run icq/msn.

...and it's all thanx to my awesome cuz (abraham!) ur pretty cool, guy. =)

AMAZING restaurant = AZURE

i totally forgot to post for the past while about the restaurant me, carny and a few of her friends went to last friday. AZURE was amazing! it was just so good. really high class, but still affordable to us poor ppl. well, their weekday lunch buffet that is.

we initially went there cuz it was part of the summerlicious and was rated pretty high. the lunch buffet was advertised as only $20, and their original price for dinner can run to $150...and that's only dinner for 2!!! so i'll take the all u can eat and the $20 thx. =P

BUT, then we found out that the regular price in the first place was $21 for the lunch buffet. so we were like..'pfft..what's $1?' it's still worth every penny. it's now the rival to sushi buffets. if u want sushi..go to jap. if u want white food..AZURE.

there was all sorts of good stuff, like...tender loin, veal, mussel, clams, scallops, shrimp, etc. oh oh..and the BEST part was the DESSERT!!! it was the BEST dessert buffet i've EVER been to! so amazing. lots and lots of mango stuff..on top of the other desserts. mmmmm....*drool*

u GOTTA go try it out. i'd rate this as a higher 'must go' than king arthur. BUT, make sure u only go to the weekday lunch buffet. any other time is MAD expensive. =D

just saw another movie

hmmm..after being on a LONG movie drought...i seem to be coming back w/ avengance. king arthur's the 4th 'new' movie that i've seen in the past few weeks. =T

it is SOOOO good. u gotta watch it. i can't say either way about it's accuracy..seeing as how i barely remember the story, but the movie itself was really well done.

good fighting sequences, good plot, good...everything. go watch it! *finger points at U! =D

grrr..!

i started really studyn for LSAT yesterday...and guy, it's

H-A-R-D!!! =|

i did like half of the diagnostic test..and GAH! half the test is equivalent to 3 sections. i only managed to finish ONE section w/in the time frame...i stopped whenever the time stopped. here's the break down of how i did.

1st section -> i passed w/ what i managed to answer...but fail when i counted all the other questions that i didn't answer as well. (i.e. 13/17 [what i answered], BUT 13/24 [the overall])

2nd section -> i passed w/ what i managed again...50 on the dot...but failed again w/ all the questions added in. (7/14 & 7/28 respectively)

3rd section -> i finished it on time!!! 35 mins exactly. BUT, i failed by half a mark. (12/25)

it's all multiple choice too! =|

i hate sucking this bad. =|

had a mini movie fest today

spent the day w/ V today. we're both jobless for now, though she's got a job in august..and i, well, ... anyhoo, we decided to bum together, and decided to go watch harry potter 3 together, seeing as how we've got to be like the last ppl on earth to go watch it =T but yeah, so while i was checkn the times for HP3 at FMP via tribute.ca, i came across the poster for the notebook and just happened to comment that i wanted to watch that to. lo and behold, so did she! and so we were like..why not watch both t/m! hahah..and so we did.

and we also did some shopping inbetween the movies as well. although we didn't get much. we both got the SAME skirt, heheh. but who could resist? it was $10!!!!

anyways, reviews on HP3 and the notebook...

harry potter 3
it was REALLY good. it's just like everybody else has said, it's darker than the others. BUT, on the flip side, it's only reflecting on what the book's like, cuz it's getn darker too.

they're all growing up. i mean, they're get so tall now! u can really tell the difference from the last movie to this one.

hmm..the ending wasn't as good as what i'd thought it'd be. it was..i guess..dry-er than what i'd imagined from reading the book. a tad disappointed about that, BUT, overall, it's a good movie.

the notebook
it is as predictable as everybody has been saying it is. but they really did a good job in pulling the emotional strings...and i mean a GOOD job. i actually teared up like twice throughout the movie. and i NEVER cry during movies..'cept for armageddon. i can't watch it w/o crying. it's like the BEST movie ever.

anyways...yes, it really is a good movie. i'd say it's 'watch it in the theatres' worthy. it can be lame at times..there's some cheese to it..but, yeah...just go watch it. i like how they ended it though, as lame as it really is.

...I'll be seeing you.

crap

why am i such a jerk, especially when i don't mean to be? it's like an unconscious reflex. i love how i can just screw up frriendships that way. =| sucks. 'specially when it's brought to my attention. there are times when...

ignorance is bliss

as well, as a result of my careless actions, i tend to draw more 'problems' for myself. hmm..maybe i should just start to try to change my personality? if that's even possible. i don't want to, but maybe it's something that i have to do, cuz it's causing rifts inb/w some ppl and me.

this bites.

an accident? i think not

God's in charge, and He knows who you are. His gift to us is life. We are God's love, for He IS love (1 John 4:8).

picked up a poem that's pretty good. so here's some food for thought...

You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.
.
.
.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your hearts
So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!

-- Russell Kelfer

the purpose driven life

and so my church has fallen into the rick warren hype. although i like the book well enough, i don't understand where all this attention for it is coming from. it's ridiculous. i mean, i totally DON'T agree w/ how T3C's promoting it. it's as though they're getting commission out of every certain amount of books they sell. =|

end rant.


on another note..go check this out! don't it bring back good ole memories? =) (gotta give the credit of this link to rene. thx!)

my cooking adventure

gosh, did that 'adventure' suck. do i plan on cooking anytime soon? NO. the only way u'll ever get me to cook is...hmm..either

1/ somebody's gonna be giving me a LOT of $$$;
2/ it's gotta mean a lot to somebody, or, rather, i want to impress somebody (be it family/friend/etc); or
3/ some random urge of generosity hits me..


now..to expand on the fiasco..

all started when i woke up feeling a lil lethargic and tired cuz of the lack of sleep. but whatever..just shook myself awake and went to start my day.

it started well enuff. had to make a few phone calls and get some details ironed out. then, had to get started on the dish that i had to bring for the potluck. i had to bring a meal dish, so being the idiot that i was i decided to do something adventurous...aka lasagna from scratch.

figured i had about 4 hours to make it, plenty of time. so i got all the ingredients and decided to start w/ the sauce. got out a can of tomato sauce. it didn't have an expiry date on it..and i figure it hadn't been in the cupboard for very long..boy, was i WRONG! apparently it's been in there for so long that i guess the gases in there..is there even gas in there?..decided to meld and grow together. so when i clamped on the can opener...BAM! it exploded. so w/ me yelling at the can, my mother came in to find half the kitchen in disarray. BUT, she was nice enough to help me clean up. =)

so then, i had to find a pot to cook the noodles in while i figure out what to do now that i had no tomato sauce. i found one on the stove...and figured it was dirty so i'd just wash it up first. simple enuff rite? WRONG...again. what i thought was water at the bottom of the pot was actually oil. and so as i was dumping the 'water' into the sink..i geniusly realized that it wasn't..and all the dishes that were currently residing the sink were all oily. ick! =| so MORE yelling on my part and grumbling cuz i HATE washing oily stuff. *sigh* more time wasted.

so then i just figured that i'd make another kind of lasagna that would look really pretty, but would take a lil longer to make..ok fine, a LOT longer to make. but decided against it like the next minute after, cuz logic kicked in and i just realized that there was NO way i had enough time to prep then actually make it. so back to step one.

looked around in the cupboard to see what i could make..and was gonna make another kinda of pasta, but then my mother suggested substituting cream of mushroom instead of the tomato sauce and still make the lasagna. at first, i was like..=|...cream of mushroom? lasagna's all about the tomato sauce?!

but then i was like why not..nothing else seems to be working..might as well. and so i did. and luckily it went much better after that. had to sub a whole bunch of stuff for others..so i ended up making a hodge podge lasagna..and just prayed that it wouldn't suck. cuz there was no way to try it out..w/o bringing it w/ a lil hole in the side! =T BUT, in the end, it turned out alrite. ppl thought it tasted alrite...and that's all that matters =)

so all went well yesterday..although i had to just get away from all the talking a few times cuz it was just getting too much. it was the lethargic-y feeling kicking in. =T although i'm generally a cheerful and up-beat person, i do tend to be a lil anti-social when i get super tired.

so no worries, if i just step away for a bit..ur welcome to come and join me, but it's just cuz there's too much noise w/ bunches of ppl talkn at once, and my brain can't comprehend it all sometimes. so i just wimp out and make it go away the easy way..i move away from it all. =T

the fireworks was pretty. although some of them had a good start..and a crappy end (i.e. how some of them were really pretty too look at..but didn't do much) =T *shrug* but i still enjoyed myself =)

but yeah, moral of this story is..well, at least for me...


cooking ≠ fun.