choices. Does it mean anything to you? In particular, what’s going on w/ the Christmas season.

until last night, i'd totally forgotten about how Steve Hawkins had predicted the possibility of me becoming a prayer warrior. it'd be mine's for the taking if i choose to follow down that path. but in my current state, that's at the complete other end of the other spectrum from where i'm standing...and i don't really have plans to move towards that direction at the moment. and all it took was alex asking me whether or not i'd see myself going back, really going back to the church and God.

one day, i'll be back.it's too ingrained in me to ignore it forever. as to when...that's yet tbd.

do i give God the time of day? another good question he asked me. i actually had to think about that one. in the conventional sense, no. i acknowledge Him, but i don't...i suppose...praise(?) Him, when something comes to mind. i just don't actively search God out. i'm not against it, in so much as, just not pursuing Him. life goes on as He plans it regardless of whether you want Him to or not. He knows what we'll do even though it is our choice in the end. there's no avoiding it, you just live it...and with the consequences of the choices that we make.